Wednesday, May 26, 2010

Pregnancy Update 11 weeks

This is my first update. Hopefully in the future weeks they will become more colorful. lol

How far along? 10 weeks 5 day, But I believe I'm actually 11wks 5 days

Total weight gain/loss: gained 3 or 4 lbs :(

Maternity clothes? Nope, but I can't button my skinny jeans

Stretch marks? Only what was left over from the other two

Food Cravings? Anything sweet, fruit and Italian food. Pepperoni pizza, Alfredo, carbs and more carbs.

Food Aversion? Veggies and hot stuff. I went to subway and had a veggie delight which is my favorite and this baby let me keep it down for about 2 min. When I was pregnant with Vayden my food couldn't be hot enough, now I'm unable to handle any heat :( . I also used to love veggies :(

Best moment this week? Realizing that I don't have pregnancy depression, May is just a hard month for me.

Movement: To be honest I think I can feel this lil one. The reason is because I know that my uterus is off to the left and whenever I feel lil tiny flutters they are left.

Gender: Unknown

Labor Signs: Nope

Weekly Wisdom: I keep reminding myself to pray often and remind God about the promises he made to me. The promise that walking through the storm of losing Vayden was only preparation for my big promotion. You can get to something without going through something. I stayed faithful to God throughout my darkest days and now his blessings are shining the brightest light.

Milestones: How your baby's growing:Your baby, just over 1 1/2 inches long and about the size of a fig, is now almost fully formed. Her hands will soon open and close into fists, tiny tooth buds are beginning to appear under her gums, and some of her bones are beginning to harden.She's already busy kicking and stretching, and her tiny movements are so effortless they look like water ballet. These movements will become more frequent as her body grows and becomes more developed and functional. You won't feel your baby's acrobatics for another month or two — nor will you notice the hiccuping that may be happening now that her diaphragm is forming.

Next Appointment? June 2nd and June 4 for another U/S

Tuesday, May 11, 2010

The Pregnancy After a Loss

May has been rough for me, I've probably shed a tear at least once a day. It's almost like May 23rd is going to reset the yr and I'm going to be replaying the 1st yr without Vayden over until May 23,2011. I wouldn't think a normal woman's 3rd pregnancy would be like this. The devil knocks so hard that you may not hear what he's trying to say but you surely know he's out there trying to get into your head, trying to break you.

This month has been crazy for me and my hormones. On Friday I was watching a baby story and a couple had lost a baby then were blessed with another one. They upset me because they said things like "I'm a Proud Daddy for the first time" and they called their new baby an angel. The baby they lost lived for something like 36 days and angels are babies like Vayden. I never thought I would be so offended by someone referring to their healthy baby as an angel, until I actually had my very own, but if your living baby in an angel then what is Vayden???

Forgive my hormones, my 1st appointment is on Thursday morning and I am very nervous, not sure what I'm nervous about, it's just nerves and as Vayden's 1st angelversary comes I just haven't really been myself lately. I'm sad a lot more these days, I get frustrated easier and I will get upset over small things. This is how it is for me my pregnancy after a loss.